I think it'd be much nicer to hear it here. You can always copy & paste too
Why I created my Youtube channel - Copy Pasted from my Patreon:
Today, February 1st 2018, is the day the Channel finally went live. It's been a long time coming. Several years, to be honest. Since I first stumbled upon youtube let's players and discovered that that was actually a thing. Due to my anxiety and just general self doubt, I refrained for a very long time.
Eventually, however, I broke and started a Twitch channel (not under Cabbitude) and streamed for about four months. I fell in love with the idea of the community and even began to collect a few followers and even some regulars. Yes, a couple of them were friends from outside of Twitch who I'd known for quite some time... but I'm not counting them. It was wonderful to see those new to my life, who I met through my stream, pop up and just hang out for a while, talking about life, how their day went, and just jawjacking in general while I kicked in heads in Mad Max or ran around Fallout 4. It was great.
Unfortunately, my time on Twitch was somewhat short lived. I'm one of those crazy people who researches EVERYTHING to within an inch of its life. Especially things I wanted to be good at... I wanted to be good at Twitch. So I read and watched everything I could get my hands on. Some of this stuff was pretty good and lead to people commenting about how 'pro' my account seemed to be due to its setup... The rest of the stuff, however, was... frightening, if I'm going to be honest here. There's nothing quite more terrifying than watching all the compilations of Twitch livestreams collected on Youtube that illustrate the horrible things that other people (including other gamers) have put Twitch gamers through.
So, after four months or so, I quit Twitch. It wouldn't matter to anyone anyway. Nobody knew me well enough to wonder where I'd gone or why. The couple people who were originally part of my real life remained as such, for the most part, and supported me in my decision as they know enough about my temperament to understand my reasoning and that I never drop anything without good reason.
But it left a mark on me. The community, that tiny handful of people who would pop up during my streams and say 'hey' and hang out because they genuinely seemed to like my inane rambling and personality. I missed them. I missed people. And, oddly enough, I missed sharing my opinions and experiences with them. And ok, I won't lie, I missed the idea that I could make a little cash doing something that I loved.
That's how Cabbitude Gaming was born. The beginning of the year is one of those times when everyone thinks back over their lives and contemplates what needs to be changed. My list is long and not at all lacking in enough projects, goals, and dreams to keep me busy for the remainder of my life, but one stuck out above the rest - To create a Youtube channel. Due to my health, both psychological and physical, I am somewhat limited in a variety of ways and tend to spend the majority of my life parked contently at my dual monitored Win 10 PC. So I figured... why not give it a shot? What's the worst that could happen? I lose a couple bucks on a domain name and logo/banner design and the channel never picks up speed... I can live with that.